i dont know what gets into me, that made me look for indie bands thru google. i feel lost in what i'm doing right now. i ate lunch at home btw! on saturday ... i'm really messed up. listening to U2, with Stay. now does this got anything to do with what i'm going thru?! or am i just being too sentimentil about everything?

i watched playhouse disney channel just then, and got interested with what we called a 'timer'. i hate waiting, but well we all need to. in everyday life, we put timer on something so we dont have to stay and wait. we can do other things while we're at it, and when it dings, then we know that what we're waiting for is done. some of us likes the torture of stay and wait. so even though we put on the timer, we still hang and watching at the timer. then we started to cursing and losing hope.. we got tired and weary. or.. we might try to help this ol' timer to finish its job, by pusing the needle and make it move faster than it should. just so it dings quicker. but what do we get? a premature result. it wont suit our needs.

we really need to let the time goes by, and try to distract ourselves by doing other chores. BUT CAN WE???? in practice ... HELL NO! its only a metaphore, i'm not talking just about a plain kitchen timer. what about the universal timer, that sets time for everything that we want, we need, we hope for. we get agitated and annoyed when the time went slower than it should [when it's actually doin' his job the way he should!]

i had enough listening to music ... [i cant believe i said that!!!]